I was debating on posting this… so I just bit the bullet and posted it anyways.

It isn’t any secret… I’m in my second week of being jobless.

Starting 2014 with nothing to do in the hours that I usually have filled with drawing weird details and drawings of fireplaces is kinda strange. Did you know that there is sunshine during those hours? Did you know that you can help and visit with a lot of people during these hours? Did you know you can exercise during those hours? And climb rocks and figure out what exactly you can be?  Being jobless for the first time since I was 17 is surreal to say the least, and I have of course been focused on finding it’s silver lining.

Honest to goodness I can say that I think watching “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty” two days before I was unemployed was exactly what I needed to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. Now I’m not suggesting this is a movie for everyone to see, because I’m known to oversell things I like. And, I don’t know many people personally who can benefit from it’s message, unless they are willing to reflect on their own experiences with honesty and candor… But, I can say that for me, this movie was life changing. I haven’t found a person in actual life who could tell me more about what is about to happen in mine. Walter, to me was more than a fictional character who’s has an incredible imagination, and is charmingly awkward. His years of making others thoughts and rough work into beautiful printed completion was never truly appreciated for what it was, but he did it sometimes with glee sometimes with just need to get it done. I’m not saying that is word for word my existence. But I like that Walter was so dedicated to a job that he knew was going to be lost, and who can really appreciate that?

Well, Walter did. And I thank him for it.

Actually… my  work isn’t about reviewing movies… So, I need to move on.

I’m not going to focus on any of the past but I will say this with some joy…  I no longer have people asking how long my Doctor’s appointments should last– I no longer have anyone guilting me into not getting  annual check ups, or counting how many times I have gone to the bathroom. That I will simply not miss.

However working with a team you trust, is kind of amazing, I will never forget it or them. Those people know who they are.

But life moves on.

And then you watch Meg Ryan movies as you fill out job applications. Because she is a kindred spirit, like Drew Barrymore and Tina Fey. And then you notice things in movies you’ve seen a million times but never thought of before:

And this time I thought about it… Why yes I do. FOREVER.  It’s natural, it’s infinite and at times it’s terrifying.

But when you have hope and goals maybe it isn’t so bad.  I hope to do something brilliant with my forever. And I’m working on it right now.

♥Lauren